Yesterday, I decided to create a vision board. With the many changes in my life, I felt the need to reflect on everything that is happening—where I was and where I want to be. I took a deep breath and began dreaming about the future. Yet, I was startled by what lay in front of me. It wasn’t the usual human desires that filled my thoughts.
My dream wasn’t about being richer, having a husband, or traveling the world. It was something different—a longing to gaze at the horizon, feel the power of a running waterfall, experience a child’s hug, play with a dog, study the magic of embodiment, and simply relish extraordinary moments that only life on Earth can bring.
Human desires can be tricky. I recall two years ago when my dream was to get married and start a family. However, my partner at the time wasn’t ready, and that was okay. But I couldn’t accept it. I blamed him, even myself, pushing him into places he didn’t want to go.
We all have the right to want and desire whatever we please. However, I was bitter and full of blame, playing the game of life, thinking we must achieve certain, imaginary things, or be deemed failures. For me, success meant starting a family. I wanted to win in life.
I remained unhappy until a moment of clarity hit me: “Okay, enough is enough! If you want to get married and start a family, fine, let’s do it!” I put a ring on my finger and played as if tomorrow was my wedding day. I allowed myself to live that desire without actually having it. The make-believe lasted for a few weeks, and then I realized I was done. I was free. Life is full of possibilities when you step outside the box.
Sometimes, our human desires are mere make-believe stories. What are we trying to prove and to whom? This isn’t the way to live. We miss out on life that is happening, the one we are experiencing now, not the one we are expecting. We are free to experience beyond time and space without losing the connection to the ground. My body didn’t know if I was really having a wedding or just playing around; it felt that I was in the flow, saying yes to myself with this fun creation. And it brought forth new wisdom.
For this reason, my new vision board is full of pictures of my current life, the one I’m living right now. I’m not going to be in this body forever. I don’t need to go anywhere. This is it! I Am here.
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